I do not have a septum in my uterus, nor is my uterus heart-shaped or any other odd shape. So, that was the best-case scenario, meaning, the placenta just abrupted, and that’s it. We’ll never know why, but I’m free to try again after 2 periods. Also, I had an adhesion that had formed after the D&C. They took little scissors and snipped it apart. It didn’t hurt. Even numbing up my cervix didn’t hurt. It was interesting to see the inside of my uterus, that blasted place, that only home my daughter ever knew. It’s was pink, and tissue-ey, and full of mucousy crud. And apparently, it’s normal.
Everything about me, and my pregnancy, was always completely normal. Until it wasn’t.
Avalon, I would give anything, and I mean that in every respect, to have kept you inside of me for 10 more weeks. I would have given everything I owned, my own soul, my own life, for you to have been given one. I’m so sorry, little girl. So sorry.