stuck in my head

I’m not remotely religious or Christian… but nevertheless, this song is stuck in my head and I find it very comforting. “God” can also be seen as the eternal bliss of just ‘being’ (think Eckhardt-Tolle), but I so wish I had the comfort that Christians do, and could believe my baby was being held by ancestors or Jesus, and sung to by angels.

I do know, though, that as I carried my baby for five months, I will carry her for the rest of my life. It may take me a while, however, to find the sort of gratitude that this writer has. I don’t want to carry her in this way… I want to carry her in my arms, alive.

“I will carry you, while your heart beats here
On beyond the empty cradle, through the coming years
I will carry you all my life
I will praise the one who’s chosen me to carry you.”
-Selah

Author: Mother of All Things

Mother by fostering, adoption, and marriage... wife to my best friend... Bay area critical care nurse... travel in my blood, reading in my bones, clean food on my mind! View all posts by Mother of All Things