In addition to knowing that the county, or a judge, could remove Jo Jo from my life forever, as a baby loss mom I also continuously worry about death. SIDS, now that this baby is already born and alive. I have read many blogs by moms who lost their babies as newborns, or as 14-week-olds, or even later. They woke up and checked on their baby, or the baby went down for a nap at daycare, and 20 minutes later they checked again and the baby was gone. There is also a foster mom who blogs that got twin newborns placed with her, one of whom died the very next day, with lots of people in the room not noticing he wasn’t breathing until too late.
Not gonna happen to me! I just got the AngelCare motion sensor monitor, and I think I’m going to sleep better tonight than I have in a while. I won’t need to put Jo Jo in the (railed) co-sleeper just so I can put my hand on her moving chest. I can turn on the ticking noise that indicates her every breath, and I can drift into a deep slumber knowing that a very annoying alarm will sound if she lies still without breathing for 20 seconds.
I tested the monitor with my hand before using it with her. Even holding as perfectly still as I was able, it still detected every muscle movement through the mattress pad in the bassinet. When I removed my hand, the alarm sounded after 20 seconds.
Some people have acted like I’m way high-strung for using this device. But peace-of-mind is truly hard to buy… and yet here it is. I’m happy.