song for my baby

The more I hear the song “Cross That Line” by Joshua Radin, the less I think of it as a romantic love song, and the more I think of my own sweet baby.

All along
I thought something would go wrong
Didn’t you?
Walls were up
We never pushed our luck, like we wanted to

Coincidentally, I first heard the song during an episode of “The Fosters”, a show about foster care. I think every parent who has adopted, fostered, had a rainbow baby, or struggled to be a parent somehow and then becomes one, can relate to this:

The sun is down
I thought you’d be gone by now
Didn’t you?

To my little girl, I don’t know how I had the strength to open my heart to a child after losing Avalon, but something told me it was right. These words are for you:

For you I’d break these walls
I’d choose to fall
I’m going to cross that line for you

Author: Mother of All Things

Mother by fostering, adoption, and marriage... wife to my best friend... Bay area critical care nurse... travel in my blood, reading in my bones, clean food on my mind!

One thought on “song for my baby”

  1. Oh my gosh. This post/ that song, had/ has me bawling. I can’t wipe the tears away fast enough.

    I hope Jo Jo is your forever baby. I have had my heart broken more than any human should be able to withstand, and I can honestly say now, it was all worth it.

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