I love the fact that my daughter is SO bonded to me. There’s nothing as wonderful as when your child reaches for you, wants to be held by you, and turns to you for comfort. It is a realization of the year of babyhood when they couldn’t expressed themselves yet, but you poured your love and devotion into their little psyches.
We have, however, a new problem. My daughter has started to protest, wildly protest, my leaving her for any length of time with anyone. Even to go into the bathroom and close the door (my mom is out there with her) causes hysterical tears and heart-wrenching sobs. The worst is when she crumples up with her hand over her face, like her heart is shattering in the worst possible way because I’m going away from her.
Oh god. It rips me right apart.
And then the reports I’m getting at school are now: “M refuses her breakfast”, “M keeps signing more, more, but doesn’t eat anything” (She uses it to express a want… maybe wanting mommy???) “M doesn’t eat any lunch.” She is there for less than 4 hours, and is now quite unhappy, this girl who used to love being in groups of people and never seemed to care if I was next to her or not!
My poor baby.
Then my mom reports colossal fits after I leave the house, melt downs and sadness. When I arrive home she runs to me, crying and clinging, and won’t let go of me or let me put her down.
I know this is a phase, and a normal one. But still. I dread going anywhere without her because my poor heart can barely stand it.