mother’s day

Today is my first Mother’s Day as a “legal” mother. It is my third Mother’s Day since becoming a foster and baby loss mom. Just some interesting trivia.

I continue to watch Cindy, M’s first mom, struggle with decisions about where to live and what will happen to her next baby. I feel her despair and sadness from all these miles away. She has not been responding to my texts or messages, and I feel in a way that she is preparing for another loss in advance. I get the feeling she won’t be coming back to our state, which saddens me only because I had hoped to finally meet her.

I am grateful this year to not only be a mother, but to still have my mother and grandmother in my life. They are the bedrock of my being and identity, and I don’t know what I’ll do someday without them.

Author: Mother of All Things

Mother by fostering, adoption, and marriage... wife to my best friend... Bay area critical care nurse... travel in my blood, reading in my bones, clean food on my mind! View all posts by Mother of All Things