Quote from the movie Australia with that fantastic little kid (Brandon Walters) who has gulapa magic.
I am feeling closer to the mystical, intangible side of existence right now. Somehow I maintain my day-to-day responsibilities while also feeling a second-by-second heightened awareness of the energies around me, the messages coming in to me, and from me. I feel a sense of knowing that has come to me at certain points in my life, and I settle into it, startled at the willful way in which I’ve blindly navigated the past decade, and yet also immensely graceful that I didn’t totally fuck everything up (I have M, afterall, and she’s truly amazing).
Speaking of her, the director of her preschool as well as her teacher have agreed to let M eat lunch with her classmates at school (her pick-up time had been directly preceding lunch). This is great because M is always starving when I pick her up from school, and she eats lunch in the car out of a lunch box (not ideal, for sure). I’ve seen lunch at her school once when we were waiting for a tow truck and they let us join. She sits at a round table with her friends and teachers, and they take turns passing the dishes and serving themselves and each other (as opposed to just picking up a tray from a counter). The teacher provides fresh salads, fruits, and vegetables with every entree in dinnerware platters and bowls. It’s not at all your typical school lunch, but a community even where the “family” sits down together and talks about food, nutrition, and what it means to eat together. This will also give me and my mom an extra half hour as well as freedom from putting a lunch together every day. Yay!
The teacher also wrote me an email telling me how happy M is in the class lately, affectionate and very concerned about any classmate who seems distressed, always offering to help or trying to make them feel better. She says M likes to play Bingo now, playing geometric shapes, listening to stories, and really loves being with her friends. She says that my little girl is “growing into a truly exquisite human being!!!” And I absolutely agree. I’m so grateful for a preschool that is anything but school, but rather a community that provides my daughter with a safe and loving environment within which to explore her world and her self. It’s a rare thing, and I couldn’t be happier that she is spending some of her most formative years with this group of people.