I have a lot of work to do, my friends. First of all, my sleepiness has returned with a vengeance. By the time afternoon rolls around, I’m more than just tired… my eyelids are closing and I feel almost drunk with sleepiness. Thank god for kids youtube, because M is usually willing to have a rest and snuggle in bed with me for a bit. Nevertheless, after sleeping sometimes 3 or 4 hours in the afternoon (my mom will come home and supervise M sometimes), I am more than ready for bedtime at 9pm and sleep through the whole night. Yes, I can easily sleep 14-15 hours out of 24 and still not feel rested. I’ve blogged about this before, and had three work-ups by three different physicians for a myriad of culprits (thyroid, mono, anemia, etc). Nothing has ever come back positive, leaving all three docs to tell me I just need more sleep than the average person.
Well, maybe I do, but couldn’t I at least be able to make it through daylight hours without feeling like I’m about to fall over with fatigue?? I have switched to a healthier diet, so now I’m doing the following: cutting down on my paxil gradually until I’m off of it completely, exercising, drinking more water, not drinking alcohol regularly, and taking iodoral and methionine supplements myself. (M’s pediatrician convinced me that my excellent response to SSRI’s could easily be a reflection of my own under-methylation and suggested giving SAM-e supplements a try for a while, couldn’t hurt but could potentially help me to stay off paxil).
I need to lose weight, so all of that will help with weight loss of course. I also really, really don’t feel like exercising ever, but I just gotta do it. I tried to do yoga at home last night and M kept tackling me. Ugh. But I did do post-nap yard work.
So add all of this to the goal of not spending more money than I have to spend, and I have my self-improvement work cut out for me. I need an honesty buddy though… anyone??